The Niece of a Drug Addict

©Ashlynn Peluso

The Niece of a Drug Addict

Have you ever wondered what goes on inside the mind of an addict? The whole process of getting hooked is quite simple but it’s the individual story of how they got caught up in the mess of drugs that makes each different. It’s one thing to hear about the truth behind addiction and another to experience it for yourself. Between 26.4 million and 36 million, people abuse opioids worldwide. This typically leads to other substance manipulation in the future. Often people go through the worst of addiction before they realize they deserve a much better life. Little did I know, I’d learn the importance of life through my uncle and his battle within addiction.

Adrenaline was my uncles all-time high before he became a drug addict. The race in his heart, the catch in his breath, and the tremor in his hands fueled the excitement that drove him. At the age of 20, his world took a turn which would alter his life from that moment on.  He and his buddy decided to race four-wheelers on an old dirt road. Rocks pinging off tires, dust whipping away behind them, he felt the vibration of the throttle on the pad of his thumb. His heart rate rioted inside him, only if he knew one day that would stop. He saw the road slim to one lane, before he could think things through they both swerved to avoid colliding. The sound of branches snapping beneath him along with the deafening slush of water from the crick sent his mind into a craze. He broke his leg in three different places. A rod was placed in his thigh while several pins were set in the rest.

            After the accident, he had enough emotional and physical pain to share. Desperate for relief, he was in search of pain killers. His anger bubbled inside and eventually overflowed without them. He gathered the prescription pills and numbed the pain. The bitterness laced with his saliva invades his taste-buds and he felt his ache dissipate. The feel of a bottle in the palm of his hand, the sound of the capsules clanking against the wall grew into a weakness. He mentally and physically relied on them to keep him sane. Eventually the pills weren’t giving him enough of a high anymore and he began seeking more intense alternatives. The list goes on for the various drugs he’s filled his body with to find that faultless ease of pain. He craved the fire that burned inside each time he took a hit.

            December 2016, he was on a heroin and methamphetamine kick. He pumped meth into his system to hype him up. The high was so intense, he needed to bring himself down a bit, so he took a turn with heroin. Heroin is more of a relaxing drug, which meant he could still feel lively but calm. That shot caused him to overdose. He held death in his hands, and felt his existence slip between his fingers second by second. 911 was called and he was lifeless, his heart was slowed to a steady nothing. They gave him Naloxone (also known as Narcan) three different times by spraying it up his nostrils. After the third dose, he was brought back. His heart started beating and the taste of air entered his lungs once again. If 911 would’ve been called ten minutes later, he wouldn’t be alive today.

            His four kids would be without a father, it would be a loss to everyone in his family. He wouldn’t have met his newest daughter either. Drugs changed him, there was a huge disconnect between family and friends while he was under the influence. He is now teaching me how to drive and we are re-developing our relationship now. Within this whole experience, I learned that no matter how much pain there is, emotional or physical there are other ways to come out of the dark place. Drugs are extremely easy to get hooked on, any shape or form of them. When you do them, you’re not just affecting you, you’re affecting every person in your life. Nothing ends well when drugs are involved, many people I know have either used or overdosed on some type of drug. Overdoses are no longer uncommon. Be aware of what you’re doing and be stronger than the temptations.

©Ashlynn Peluso

           

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21 thoughts on “The Niece of a Drug Addict

  1. Oh, god, Ash! 😢 That is so sad. I…..I don’t really know what to say except that I hope your uncle’s wobbly experiences related to his past drug obsessed self will always cause and remind him to steer clear of any temptations of the similar kind.

    True that overdose in any form and of anything is lethal but I do believe that each of us humans need to get high on SOMETHING to feel alive. I get high on nature from time to time. And often, I feel solace in the quickening of breaths and the flutters that are such a pleasant side-effect of falling in love. So, I believe he will still need something as a subsititute and I hope he will find these gentle pleasures far more healthy and enjoyable. 😊😊

    Oh, and let me congratulate you on your excellent skills as a writer. LOVED THIS! ❤

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    1. Definitely. He’s experienced so much and I agree with you. He is now putting focus on family rather than a substance that is deadly.

      Thank you so much. I’m looking forward to posting more of my work but I just want to make sure the work is top notch before putting it out there. Also, how’s my novel so far you haven’t said much, what chapter are you on? ❤ Also curious about the aesthetics.

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      1. Heyy!! It’s almost done but I AM STUCK ON THE ROMANCE ONE. 🤣 It’s TOO HARD TO FIND THE RIGHT pics for it you know. I am working on it EVERY SINGLE MINUTE I CAN SPARE. I am sooo sorry for the delay though. It’s just that I don’t want it to turn out to be ugly. 😅

        And as for your novel, I must I haven’t picked anything to read ever since I got well. I mean, I have been stuck with some of the ARC reviews and the time I do get aprt from that, I have been spending it on the aesthetics. ❤❤

        But as soon as I finish with them, your novel is THE FIRST THING ON MY TBR. 🤗🤗🤗❤❤❤

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      1. OHMYGOSHOHMYGOSHOHMYGOSHHHHH!!!! I TOTALLY GET WHAT YOU MEEAAAAANNNNN?!!! IT IS SOOO FUCKING AMAZING..!!!! 😍😍😍😍😍 I am CRYING!! It was soo beautiful. AND DAMN! THAT BEAT!!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

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        1. I’M HEADED STRAIGHT FOR THE CASTLE THEY WANNA MAKE ME THEIR QUEEN AND THERE’S AN OLD MAN SITTING ON THE THRONE THAT’S SAYING THAT I PROBABLY SHOULDN’T BE SO MEAN I’M HEADED STRAIGHT FOR THE CASTLE THEY’VE GOT THE KINGDOM LOCKED UP AND THERE’S AN OLD MAN SITTING ON THE THRONE THAT’S SAYING I SHOULD PROBABLY KEEP MY PRETTY MOUTH SHUT STRAIGHT FOR THE CASTLE OH, ALL THESE MINUTES PASSING, SICK OF FEELING USED IF YOU WANNA BREAK THESE WALLS DOWN, YOU’RE GONNA GET BRUISED AND NOW MY NECK IS OPEN WIDE, BEGGING FOR A FIST AROUND IT ALREADY CHOKING ON MY PRIDE, SO THERE’S NO USE CRYING ABOUT IT 😭❤❤

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  2. Christ😢😢I hope he is okay.Must have been difficult to see that.He must have gone through some traumatic stuff to feel lhe had to do all that.Its scary cause it can happen to anyone.Being an addict is not as difficult as people make it out to be.All it requires is a single experience and your hooked.

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