Something on my mind…

Disclaimer: This is kind of a touchy subject that deals with homosexuality. I am no way forcing beliefs on anyone and I don’t think I know what it is like to go through the hardships some people go through for being gay. For the sake of peace, I am disabling the comments on this post. I love reading your comments, but since it’s such a sensitive subject, I don’t want it to turn into an argument. I feel like if I post about topics like this where I am sharing my opinion, it’s easier if the comments are blocked, some people like to start drama for the sake of it and this is a way to just avoid it all together.

I thought about writing this posts a month or so ago and decided against it. However, it’s been something on my mind and in my heart and I wanted to share with Y’all. 

The Story: 

Religion has always been so difficult for me. I was an atheist for a long time because I just didn’t know what to believe. I always questioned who wrote the Bible and why? Was it just something written to make us feel better about our narcissistic selves because we couldn’t handle the thought of us not existing after death? I’ve always questioned faith. 

When I was 14 I started going to a Christian church by myself for the sake of feeling detached from God and searching for a greater good. My entire life I would go to churches with different family members once in a while and I always had the basics of God’s plan instilled in me at a young age even though I didn’t go to church often or even read the Bible. My close family doesn’t really enforce religion, we don’t talk about it. 

My sister took me to this church for the first time and I fell in love with the energy and how I felt after church. After that first time, I was going by myself for a good year or so. About a month into going I was saved. A man came to the church and preached and told such moving stories about the wonders God has done and I felt so swept up and blown away by what he was saying. I felt so incredibly close to God that day. If you don’t know what saved means it basically is, I committed my life to Jesus. As I studied the Bible and went to Sunday school and went to church different topics were brought up and discussed. 

Homosexuality was one of them. I specifically remember this conversation because it was emotional and hard. I was asked if I thought it was okay for people to be gay. My response was, “If they’re happy then it shouldn’t be a problem.” I was flat out told No, that was wrong and I shouldn’t think it was okay. Sitting in that room I was holding back tears because How could someone sit there and tell me the way someone is, is unrighteous and wrong? How could they tell me that their happiness doesn’t count if they aren’t straight?

I went home and I cried. It was the most intense conversation for a 14-year-old, in my opinion, and it was difficult to take in. 

I believe that God loves everyone, he forgives our sins if we ask for forgiveness and he loves us unconditionally regardless of our sexuality. So I did some research, I didn’t want that person to be right. I hoped so hard for it to be untrue. Here’s what I learned, it needs to be said…

Leviticus 18:22, the man shall not lie with man and it is an abomination.

Deuteronomy 22:5 A woman must not wear men’s clothing, nor a man wear women’s clothing, for the Lord your God detests anyone who does this.

The laws of the Old Testament were set forth by God as the rules the Hebrews needed to follow in order to be righteous, to atone for the sin of Adam and Eve and to be able to get into Heaven.  That is also why they were required to make sacrifices because it was part of the appeasement for Original Sin. 

 According to Christian theology, when Jesus came from Heaven, it was for the express purpose of sacrificing himself so that our sins may be forgiven. His sacrifice was supposed to be the ultimate act that would free us from the former laws and regulations and allow us to enter Heaven by acting in his Image. That is why he said “it is finished” when he died on the cross. That is why Christians don’t have to circumcise their sons (God’s covenant with Jacob), that is why they don’t have to perform animal sacrifice or grow out their forelocks or follow any of the other laws of Leviticus (3rd book in the Bible). 

Since his death on the cross, the Old laws were not something we are made to follow, however, some still follow them. It is not wrong it just isn’t a cultural norm. You cannot be the one to say “You’re going to hell because you’re gay or trans” It is invalid. You’ll go to hell because you’re a sinner and didn’t repent before death. 

When they quote Leviticus as God’s law and say they are rules we must follow because they are what God or Jesus wants us to do, what they are really saying, as a Christian, is that Christ’s sacrifice on the cross was invalid. He died in vain because you believe we are still beholden to the Old laws. That is what they, self-proclaimed good Christians, are saying to God and his son, that their plan for our salvation wasn’t good enough. 

So maybe read the Bible before you start quoting it because the implications of your actions go a lot deeper than you think. This is a theological point that isn’t brought up often enough. God says if you hate, it’s the same as murder. Hating homosexuals based on your knowledge of the Bible doesn’t make you a better person, especially if you don’t know the facts. Please be considerate of peoples feelings. I feel as if it is important to speak upon and bring to light because I know how that made me feel and I can only imagine how others feel about this subject. 

Thank you to Caidyn for providing me with some of his notes from his religious studies. They were really helpful and added some extra insight.